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Please watch out before you badmouth about others in the ladies.

You will never know who is in the cubicle when you are gossiping :)

So check out the cubicles before you gossip?

It can be really embarrassing.

Moving on, as i’m lazy to create a new entry, i shall continue with this short entry by sharing some of my thoughts before i go to bed.

It was a hectic week and i do not have enough rest time for myself, leave alone any other business. I’m back with aching back, shoulders, legs and arms. Stephy, pretty boy and i are becoming rare species/ “treasure” of china as we all deprive of proper sleep.

There are way too many things for me to handle. I realized that there are many things in my life that are beyond my control. Before i go on, i must emphasize that whatever that i’m gonna share are just some of my honest thoughts in general; no offense to anyone- oversensitive people please do not take it personally or don’t bother reading it. Sometimes i feel very helpless even though i have tried. Let’s leave aside this word-Luck. For certain aspects, as long as you are serious about it; work hard and put in effort, you will be able to see significant results. However, it is not applicable for all. The ridiculous thing is- people have the tendency to hear too much misinterpreted stuffs. Some tend to make hasty judgements or assumptions before allowing others a chance to explain. Some may say that they “allow” others to explain but they were unable to keep cool/calm enough to sort out disputes; in fact the word is-demanding instead of allowing.

On my part, I will always wanna listen to both parties instead of hearing 1 sided story. On top of that, I believe in giving everyone a 2nd chance for we are all human; everyone makes mistake. Well, i was once a girl who make hasty decisions and i learned from my mistake; i do not want to let my emotion rule me as it may lead me to make wrong decision and regret for life. Right or Wrong is pretty subjective and we will never know which is the “best”; at least i try to pick a “better” choice within the limited time & with limited resources?

I wonder- is it necessary to even explain since one has already made assumption/judgement? And how effective will the “explanation” be? Sometimes, i maybe bothered by certain issues but after consideration, i will let it go and move on. Reason- It is not worth our time when there is nothing we can do about it, even after “sorting out”; it doesn’t change anything. What’s done can’t be undone. In some cases, the situation may worsen, so we should just leave it as it is. Might as well spend the time doing other stuffs that can make us feel happier?

People can be forgetful at times, especially after you helped them. Of course, we don’t expect a “thank you” from them or expect them to feel grateful for our help. However, it hurts when people you care for misunderstand your good intention and accuse you for not helping when they did not ask you for any help. Due to time constraints, by the time you want to help; it was too late and you are accused for being a bad person.

So here i am, a disappointed bad person who cherish friendship and love.

Frankly speaking, i don’t know what else to say and do about it. I’m seriously too tired; all i ask for is peace and plenty of rest. Maybe it’s time to walk away quietly. Everyone have their own eyes to see for themselves and my conscience is clear, so i have nothing to be afraid of. Like what i always say- we are all young adults and i’m sure we are old enough to think for ourselves and be responsible for our own actions. We can do whatever we like as long as it is not against our beliefs & integrity & law.

Beginning of 2010 doesn’t seem to be that smooth for me.

Though i may portray a cool image on exterior but deep down, i have my soft side too.

Who can see that side of me? The answer is very few, only those whom i “unlocked my doors” and “entered my world”. The most comforting truth is- i know that i will always have the few whom i can depend on and trust. They may not be there for me 24 7 but i know that at least 1 or 2 of them will make some time for me when i need them and believe me as they read me like a book. Haha, i feel so “naked” when they know me so well so that i don’t even need to speak up my mind. I have faith in them You guys know who you are and i know you people maybe reading this, million & billion thanks! *hugs*

Sigh, i’m beat. Good night everyone~