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April Once Again

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April have got to be the favorite month for me regardless that there’s no public holiday nor the fact that it’s the beginning of Spring. (in countries with 4 seasons that is.)

四月は春から、私好きの月。

実は今月は私の誕生日から。

The reason is simple, it’s my birthday month. And no this is not a post to remind friends that my birthday is coming up, please prepare the presents. LOL.

It simply means that I’m going to grow older by a year and it’s probably time to round up the things I’ve done at the current age before it increases by 1.

To tell the truth, after my epic 21st, I don’t find myself looking forward to birthdays any longer. I’m more like can I be forever 21 please? Haha.

二十一歳あどで、誕生日はあまり好きじゃない。

But the cruel truth is I’m approaching my 23rd birthday in 26 days on the 29th April. Which happens to be a public holiday in Japan, can I go live in Japan instead?　日本で住みたい！！誕生日は休みの日から。

From the last April till now, I don’t think I’ve done much with my life actually. Well, I tried grabbing the opportunities to have a shot at fulfilling my dreams. Walked my first fashion walk. Went to Genting first time in my life. Had my first experience of memory loss from drinking.(Not something to be proud of.) Started going to gay clubs instead. Finally landed myself a proper full time job. Got fillers done for my nose and cheeks. Got myself a hair sponsor and cut bangs which I’m growing out now. Got my JLPT N4 certification. Got myself involved in Glow BFF, which kick start my healthy conscious for a healthier lifestyle. Got my theory tests for driving covered.

That’s about all I think, oh wait. There’s more but it’s more of a private and fail part of my life I think.

The matters of the heart. Other then the fact that I’ve been single all my life and that I’ve gotten myself in a super complicated situation. I don’t know what else to say so I shall stop here.

Anyways, 23 this year. I’m going to work hard in getting a healthier and better looking body. Now that I see results, time to really get serious on losing those extra flabs that I’ve no need for. Also, this is the last year for me to try out for that little dream of mine. Not a limit that I’ve set for myself but their age limit is 23. >< One can only hope.

Blogging wise, I wish to be able to achieve more. And of course, I will first write more and better stuff. I can really write you know, just that I somehow got lazy over the years. The 17 years old me can write a 93 page long novel in Chinese. The 22 going 23 me type one long blog post tired already. More like eyes tired la, no choice, age is catching up on me.

I’ll also start plans on taking my practical lessons for driving so I can get that license before the next April arrives. And of course, a diploma in Make Up, I will work towards that too after the license.

Also the 22 years old me is pretty nice to the coming 23 years old me. Two trips awaiting me after I turned 23. Phuket and Gold Coast, wait for me beaches!

Alright, this post is getting lengthy. I shall stop soon. But before I do that, I just want to say that I’m trying my best to live my life hard. It might seem that I’ve not achieve anything much in life but I’m trying my very best.

I need to love myself more too.

And of course, I love all of you who’s reading this now.

XOXO,
Joyce.Forensia

Things I look out in a man

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Before I go on about the list, I shall first state that I’m a super superficial person.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder or something along the line, does not applies to me. Don’t tell me that as long as you love the person, it does not matter tall, short, fat, skinny. Why don’t you go date any Tom, Dick, Harry then?

Friends around me would say I’ve super high expectations which I agree.

Why settle for less?

If you expect A, don’t settle for B or C just simply because everyone around you is getting attached or married.

Imagine settling down with a B or C and then you met A. Regrets, and maybe cheating will come in place. All sorts of problems come along. And the poor B or C will be hurt.

Definitely, you have to search through the many Bs and Cs to finally find your A. But that doesn’t mean you are allowed to give false hope to the other party if your feelings aren’t mutual.

Then comes the questions, do you find someone you love more or someone who loves you more? The perfect answer will be finding someone who loves you as much but to be honest how high is this possibility?

For me, I rather someone whom I love more. At least he’s someone I wanted and I will be happier. If it’s someone who loves me more, I think I will just keep picking on his flaws simply because I don’t love him as much?

Hence, rather lead a carefree single life then wasting my time and B or C’s time while I continue my search for A.

Well, I guessed I’ve made my point. So let’s move on to the actual expectations.

HEIGHT

I’m pretty blessed to be have a height of 1.68m and I love my heels no matter how much they bite me. I’m also pretty sure no guys would actually not mind their girlfriends taller than them right? The ideal height I look out for would be 1.78m min to about 1.9m? Anything taller, I don’t think I want to look up all day, my poor neck.

I like pretty guys and manly ones of course. I just have a soft spot for pretty charming looking guys. You know those 美男子 category kind of guys?  A perfect example, would be my idol Danson Tang. Pretty handsome man whom is muscular at the same time. By muscular I mean fit, like lean muscular and not the huge muscle man type. Best is have 6 packs abs or at least some form of abs or flat tummy.

I don’t really like guys who’re too tanned. Not that I’m not attracted to tanned good looking guys. But I’m like pretty fair and taking photos beside a tanned person shows too stark a difference in skin tones.

Best is those who just happen to not get tanned no matter how long they stay under the sun. LOL.

But of course, though I prefer fair guys don’t mean I won’t fall for tanned guys. :P

INTELLIGENCE

Ok, this is pretty important. He needs to be able to hold intellectual conversations. IQ and EQ should both be on the high side. I’m not a super smart person, so I would like someone smarter than me at least. I cannot handle someone that is least smart. Ask me stupid questions and I’ll say bye bye.

He must know a lot but that does not means that he can be arrogant. I’m pretty much a clumsy person and he needs to be able to look out for me. :P

MATURITY/AGE

I for once, cannot stand childish guys. This does not equals to age, but rather the mindset. However, I don’t think I’m able to accept guys that are more than 7 years older than me. Maximum 7 years older and I don’t think I can accept younger unless he proves to be mature.

He needs to know what he wants in life and have a clear plan of the future. He don’t have to be super rich but he needs to know how to handle his money. He needs to be decisive. I think that guys who works hard in their career are super attractive.

OTHERS

I like guys to be in control but that doesn’t mean he can be possessive.

I really hope that my future partner is able to play a musical instrument. I think that guys who are talented in music are super duper attractive.

He needs to like cats. I personally love cats and if he’s someone who hate cats, I don’t think I will like him very much either. Ok, to be fair, he don’t have to like them, but he has to be ok/neutral with them.

He cannot interfere with my way of life. Meaning, trying to change me or trying to stop me from having my time with my friends. Trying to change me is definitely a no-no. I will never give up friends for a guy, but I will definitely allocated more time for my future partner.

He cannot be selfish or petty. I think it’s a major turn off.

The list can go on and on. But I’m going to be stopping here. Somehow I feel, I’m describing Mr Non-Existent/ Mr Only appear in my dreams. LOL.

Probably, many of you might say that I’ve high expectations. But if it’s a guy that I might be spending my life with, I cannot anyhow right?

To be honest, there was a point of time in my life where there’s this guy which I like a lot. He pretty much match most of the things I’ve listed down. The sad thing is, he belongs to someone else. One sided love – story of my life. The other sad thing is, he still has a small little space in my heart. And it’d been 3 years.

#foreveralone

 

I keep telling myself, I deserve better. And I’ll wait for the best man for me to appear. I believe that one day, he will appear.

XOXO,
Joyce.Forensia

Hot Silent Tears

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In and out, trying to let the air in.
Up and down, trying to ease the beat.

Fighting to breathe,
Fighting to relax the heart.

Have you wonder how a volcano erupt?

Peaceful outlook but a tsunami of lava within.

Eruption will only cause pain and more hurt.

Warmth rolling down the cheeks, in silence.

We have to let things out. We have to cry but no point doing it out loud.

Feel the pain, feel the contraction of the beating heart. Feel the blood flowing through the body. Feel the beating heart.

Yes, still very much alive.
That’s what matters no?

Yours truly,
Joyce

Learning Driving

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I’ve always been against the decision of learning how to drive. Due to my lousy sense of direction and clumsiness.

But somehow I felt that driving is a good skill to have and I finally took the first step by booking BTT.

To be honest, I wanted a bike license more than a car license. However, my mum is super against that idea saying how dangerous riding a bike is and how my brother gave it up halfway. But when I mention I want to get a car license, she made no negative comments and supports me in a way.

Initially, I wanted to sign up at BBDC as my friends have contacts for private instructors. But then, my mum mentioned that I could asked my eldest brother for contacts since he only recently retook his car license. Well he did, so I ended up enrolling at SSDC which is nearer and I could do everything online.

I also asked him if he had the theory books and he did. Haha, perks of having brothers, you can save money on things like this.

So my BTT test date is in end NOV and I’m hoping I could get my FTT by end of the year. Planning to start practical lessons at the beginning of next year and hoping to get my license before my birthday in April.

Wish me luck!!

P.S : Anyone wants to sponsor me a car after I get my license? I want a Volkswagen Beetle! Hee! (Obviously joking here.)

XOXO,
Joyce.Forensia

Updates on my Working Life~

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Hihi!!

Have started the life of an OL for more then a week already. So far so good, I like my colleagues and the environment. Still at the stage of learning the things that I need to do though.

Have already started a mini personal pantry on the third day of work, and I’m pretty sure it’s going to grow as days goes by.

I also went to buy this Hello Kitty holder for my pass. I was given a normal holder but I find that too normal. LOL. This was actually a name tag holder, not meant for cards but I managed to modify it into a card holder. :P

And due to the fact that I’m normally quite tired after work and all I do is too park myself on the sofa and watch TV, eat dinner etc. (The current channel 8 9pm show not bad eh. Been a long time since they had a show that I wanted to chase.) Which means, I will not be updating as regularly as I had been. But I will try my best to blog once every 2 – 3 days! So fret not, I’m not going to ditch this space at all! Blogging is still my favorite thing to do!

Till next time!

XOXO,
Joyce.Forensia

Recent Life Updates~

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Hi all,

I believed it had been sometime since I did a small personal life update post like this. And this space needs some ME in it so, here’s one! :P

In a few hours time, I’m going to start on a new full time job! It’s an office job but it’s a Japanese company so I think I will be able to learn loads of new stuff and also put my Japanese to practice! XD Wish me luck in my new job will you? =)

Of course, please do not worry about me neglecting my blog here! I love this space of mine and will definitely to continue to update often regardless of how busy I am!

Have attended several events for the past week and will slowly blog about them in the coming week. Look out for BellaBox TGIF event coverage, Robin Niu Anti Aging workshop, Academy Fantasia Finale etc!

It’s already mid september if you noticed! Haha! Soon, 2012 will be over and 2013 will come. I’m going to be 23 soon!!! (>~<’)
Somehow, I feel like my life is lacking something. I’ve a group of really awesome friends, ok family with some problems at times, good start on my career. If only there’s someone special by my side. Haha. I’m not afraid to say that I’ve not been in a relationship for my whole life.

There’s nothing wrong with being single. I love having “ME” time and there’s so much more freedom. I can even eat out alone without feeling weird, shop alone and all. However, there are times where I wished that there’s someone out there who will accompany me when I’m either happy or down. Someone who I can rely on, someone who cares.

Oh wells, guess I just have to continue waiting for such a person to appear. Haha. Anyone want to intro me? Hee~ =P

That’s all on my personal updates! Gonna turn in now! お休みなさい！

XOXO,
Joyce.Forensia