April Once Again

April have got to be the favorite month for me regardless that there’s no public holiday nor the fact that it’s the beginning of Spring. (in countries with 4 seasons that is.)

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The reason is simple, it’s my birthday month. And no this is not a post to remind friends that my birthday is coming up, please prepare the presents. LOL.

It simply means that I’m going to grow older by a year and it’s probably time to round up the things I’ve done at the current age before it increases by 1.

To tell the truth, after my epic 21st, I don’t find myself looking forward to birthdays any longer. I’m more like can I be forever 21 please? Haha.

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But the cruel truth is I’m approaching my 23rd birthday in 26 days on the 29th April. Which happens to be a public holiday in Japan, can I go live in Japan instead? 日本ã§ä½ã¿ãŸã„ï¼ï¼èª•生日ã¯ä¼‘ã¿ã®æ—¥ã‹ã‚‰ã€‚

From the last April till now, I don’t think I’ve done much with my life actually. Well, I tried grabbing the opportunities to have a shot at fulfilling my dreams. Walked my first fashion walk. Went to Genting first time in my life. Had my first experience of memory loss from drinking.(Not something to be proud of.) Started going to gay clubs instead. Finally landed myself a proper full time job. Got fillers done for my nose and cheeks. Got myself a hair sponsor and cut bangs which I’m growing out now. Got my JLPT N4 certification. Got myself involved in Glow BFF, which kick start my healthy conscious for a healthier lifestyle. Got my theory tests for driving covered.

That’s about all I think, oh wait. There’s more but it’s more of a private and fail part of my life I think.

The matters of the heart. Other then the fact that I’ve been single all my life and that I’ve gotten myself in a super complicated situation. I don’t know what else to say so I shall stop here.

Anyways, 23 this year. I’m going to work hard in getting a healthier and better looking body. Now that I see results, time to really get serious on losing those extra flabs that I’ve no need for. Also, this is the last year for me to try out for that little dream of mine. Not a limit that I’ve set for myself but their age limit is 23. >< One can only hope.

Blogging wise, I wish to be able to achieve more. And of course, I will first write more and better stuff. I can really write you know, just that I somehow got lazy over the years. The 17 years old me can write a 93 page long novel in Chinese. The 22 going 23 me type one long blog post tired already. More like eyes tired la, no choice, age is catching up on me.

I’ll also start plans on taking my practical lessons for driving so I can get that license before the next April arrives. And of course, a diploma in Make Up, I will work towards that too after the license.

Also the 22 years old me is pretty nice to the coming 23 years old me. Two trips awaiting me after I turned 23. Phuket and Gold Coast, wait for me beaches!

Alright, this post is getting lengthy. I shall stop soon. But before I do that, I just want to say that I’m trying my best to live my life hard. It might seem that I’ve not achieve anything much in life but I’m trying my very best.

I need to love myself more too.

And of course, I love all of you who’s reading this now.

XOXO,
Joyce.Forensia

New Year New Beginnings~

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It’s already the 2nd day of 2013 and it’s only now that feels more like a new year. This year I will become 23 years old, another year older. It’s still early but I felt like I’m facing a mid life crisis as my age increases. Haha.

Hence, I’ve decided. 2013 will be about me. I’m going to put more focus on personal well being. Not that I’m going to turn selfish, just that I’m going to put myself on first priority.

Love myself more, treat myself better, treasure myself more. I know I deserve better. And of course, giving myself more courage to chase my dreams.

Spent the last few days of the old year with awesome friends. And of course, the first few hours of the new year. These bunch of people (not all are pictured) have a precious place in my heart. They are probably the best thing that had happened in my life.

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New year, new beginnings. And of course, new memories waiting for us to create!

To a great 2013!

XOXO,
Joyce.Forensia  ジョイス

My Past and Present

Everyone have their secrets.

Don’t deny it, we all have our deepest darkest secret lay deep down in our hearts.

Like how all of us have a past. Good or bad, it’s all a perspective.

I might seem like a happy go lucky person, cheerful and all. Which I’m to a certain extend now.
But of course, I’ve my dark emo side too.

And here I’ve a confession to make.

I was once suicidal.

Well, I actually did not have the guts to go all the way out, always reserving some of that energy when cutting myself.

During that time, I’ll often try to cut myself but the cut is never deep enough. Trying to jump off the window but my brother always pull me back. (It always happened after a quarrel) Thank god I did not try it when I’m home alone. I think 4th floor might cause me to be paralyze rather than death. Popping like 10-20 different kind of pills at one go. I now know that that’s not enough for an over dosage. Trying to drown myself in a pail of water or trying to suffocate myself by strangling etc.

Thinking back, I was just being stupid. Like I could die doing all that.

Then, I moved on to simply inflicting pain on myself. Whenever I’m in a state of uncontrollable emotions, I will knock my head on the wall, pinching myself, bites myself or anything that will allow me to feel pain. It’s like an addiction of pain. And only pain can calm me down.

I think it’s also what become of my high tolerance for pain nowadays.

My point is we have all gone through a certain low point in our lives. Some might be more lucky that they never had the need to think about suicide or what’s not and just cry about spilled ice cream.
But there’s are many who faced problems that lead them to hurting themselves.

I’ve got my fair share of being bullied and bullying others. It’s normal when you get bullied either you continue to get bullied or you stand up and bully others instead to stop people from bullying you. Of course, it’s wrong. And hey I did not keep it to myself, I told my mother who told my teachers and nope, problem not solved ultimately. I got ostracized, a ‘friend’ told me she was friendly with me as she pitied me. Oh thanks, that was really nice.

I was glad that sense somehow made its way to me and I stopped doing all the hurtful things to myself. Yes, the problem is there and I will do no good by hurting myself. It’s not like with every cut I make on myself the problem will slowly go away. Why should I end my life? I will make my life a better one than all those who have a part in the horrible elements of my earlier life. Not that I’m that old but you get my drift.

I’m probably not living a life that many would envy but at least I’m content. I’ve friends who genuinely care about me. I’ve got some recognition in the things that I’m passionate about. I’m a much happier person. Though sadly, my main problem comes from the family. Blood ties you can’t break simply. Occasional outbreak, but I’ve learnt to not make a din. Keeping quiet is a virtue. And it’s also a preventive measure. Although there are still times when things got overboard.

Even when you’re down, don’t let the unhappy things follow you to the next day. A brand new day means a brand new start and we have got to start positive. If we allow negativity from previous day to follow, it will only accumulate more and more. So people, lets do ourselves a favour. Do not care about what people think of you, as long as you are happy, that’s enough.

XOXO,
Joyce.Forensia

Hot Silent Tears

In and out, trying to let the air in.
Up and down, trying to ease the beat.

Fighting to breathe,
Fighting to relax the heart.

Have you wonder how a volcano erupt?

Peaceful outlook but a tsunami of lava within.

Eruption will only cause pain and more hurt.

Warmth rolling down the cheeks, in silence.

We have to let things out. We have to cry but no point doing it out loud.

Feel the pain, feel the contraction of the beating heart. Feel the blood flowing through the body. Feel the beating heart.

Yes, still very much alive.
That’s what matters no?

Yours truly,
Joyce

Trends that Never Die: Satchel

Vintage. I’m sure most of you love vintage in some manner.

For example vintage dresses, shoes etc. Those dresses from the 60s that have once turned old-fashioned have been given a new lease of life in the modern days.

Lomography, the film cameras from plastic to metal coming alive in this modern digital society. The last time I used a film camera was in Secondary 3! Haha! That’s 7 years ago where film cameras are slowly dying down and taken over by digital cameras. I remembered that I used to look at the films of old photographs as a kid and got fascinated by how those images are processed into prints. And I’m very glad that lomography came alone and make film cameras popular once more.

Today, I’m going to be talking about Satchels. Ever wondered when did the first satchel ever appear on this earth? Which era did it originated from? And how is it like now in the modern society?

 

Loculus is a Latin word literally meaning little place and was used in a number of senses including to indicate a satchel. Satchels were carried by Roman legionaries, as a part of their sarcina or luggage.

 

- Taken From Wikipedia

 

So the very first Satchel known as the Loculus was seen on Roman legionaries but it’s only till the 17th century that it started becoming popular and became a fashion accessory.

The classic satchel are usually made of brown leather as seen below. It’s also often associated as a school bag especially in the UK.

In literature, the satchel is often associated with the classic image of the English schoolboy: “And then the whining school-boy, with his satchel” is a phrase from Shakespeare’s monologue All the world’s a stage.

-Taken from Wikipedia

 

 

I was trying to find a picture of the satchel used in Harry Potter films but am only able to find one.

Seen on Draco Malfoy is a black leather satchel and next is a modern replica by The Cambridge Satchel Co. If I’m not wrong, Harry’s satchel is in canvas style though.

Other than Harry Potter, satchel are also seen in other famous movie, Indiana Jones. I would say that Satchel is a trend kept alive by it’s purpose as a book bag for students and also pop culture.

In the current context, when one mention leather satchels, most would immediately think of The Cambridge Satchel Co which started back in 2008. And no surprise, it was started as one of the founder wanted to find good quality satchel like those in Harry Potter movies for her children. Then one thing leads to another and it is now a popular brand in making leather satchels in the UK.

What make it so popular? Well I’m pretty sure if they stick to making the good old brown or black bags, they will still earn but not be as popular. Tell me who don’t love colors?

This is a pretty pastel rose satchel recently released by The Cambridge Satchel Co as limited edition with 3 other colors.

These are the florescent bags that they have came out with and got people getting crazy over. And I can understand it, look at the pretty colors!

And of course, there’s not only one single company producing these leather satchels. One other company that produces these satchels is Zatchels also from the UK. One very different things about Zatchels is that they offer a whole range of quirky designs from florals to polka dots! Definitely for those that are looking for that fashion forward look!

 

So we have The Cambridge Satchel Co that offers the good old satchel in solids colors or two tones. Zatchels that offers a whole wide range of designs. Which one do you like better? Or won’t it be even better if we could just decide your own colors for your own satchel? Maybe you like a two tone one but The Cam Co just did not have the combination you like. Or you like that unique Union Jack design but Zatchels only have it in that color? Or you just want your bag to be super colorful and have different colors for each part? Basically, the option to customize your own bags from the colors down to the size.

After much research on Google, I found The Leather Satchel Co which have been crafting Satchels, casing to handbags since the late 1960s. Best thing is they allow customization! Which is also know as the bespoke option where you can custom make a huge satchel of 20 inch if you need one that big.

This one below is not exactly the traditional satchel but one of the custom work done by The Leather Satchel Co.

Here’s another photo of the custom piece place side by side a standard 15 inch satchel by The Leather Satchel Co.

The Leather Satchel Co have up to 25 different colored leather for you to choose from for either a solid color satchel or two tones to a colorful one. Here’s some examples I took from their FB page.

Ain’t they pretty? I sure think they are!

Honestly speaking, I really like satchels. They are easy to carry and are such a classic piece to have. I personally own several messenger bags which is similar to the satchel and I love all of them. So when I learnt of the satchel, I knew I had to get one! But which? If I had not done my research, I would have gone ahead and order on from The Cambridge Satchel Co.

But after some googling and reading this post here, http://aplusbinthesea.blogspot.sg/p/guide-old-school-satchels.html .

My heart wavered towards The Leather Satchel Co. Firstly, they have been around since the 1960s. Secondly, reviews online were good. Thirdly, they provide a 5 years warrenty! Lastly, customization. That’s it, I’m sold.

Plus, The Leather Satchel Co send free leather swatches to you so that you can look at the colors in real life before deciding your final order! How cool is that? Did I mentioned that the leather swatches are free worldwide? That’s really some good service! It totally solve the problem of you worry that what you’re receiving might not be true to the color you seen on the computer screens.

And yes, I’ve emailed them for some samples of the colors I had in mind. I will definitely customize something that will be my signature bag. XD And of course, with FJF embossed on it.

Here’s the links to all the 3 companies that I’ve mentioned in this post.

http://www.cambridgesatchel.co.uk/

http://www.zatchels.com/

http://the.leathersatchel.co/

You all can take a look and see where do you want to order from if you’re interested in getting a satchel. I highly recommend The Leather Satchel Co though I have not exactly purchase from them yet nor from others. It’s simply because I think that I’ve pretty good research skills.

But hey, if you are going to spend at least $200 over for a leather satchel, why don’t get a unique one? I mean yes you can have your name embossed on the satchel and then you go out meeting another person with the exact same brand satchel in the same colors just that the name embossed is different. Even for those limited edition bags that only have like 16 in the world, you will still have the same bag with 15 others.

So if you can get a customized and personalized satchel, why not?

XOXO,
Joyce.Forensia

P.S: I do not owe the rights of any photos in this post. Photos are taken from google and credited to their rightful owners. Photos of The Leather Satchel Co are taken from their FB and credited to them. :)